Tuesday, December 14, 2010

How the time flies

What?! It's December 14?! WHAT?! My baby girl is 3 weeks, 3 days old?! When did this happen? Make it stop!

I have been loving every single minute I've had at home with Miss Ainsley and I am positively dreading going back to work in 3 weeks! I wish there was some way to make money while hanging out with your daughter, or for Justin to make money going to school. Then I could stay home!

Justin and I went out on a date, all by ourselves, on Sunday night! We left Ainsley in the very capable hands of 2 friends and went to see Harry Potter. It was wonderful and also so strange! Only a couple hours away from her and I missed her sooo much - how am I going to do 8 hour days when I go back to work?

Friday Ainsley and I are going to Fergus for the weekend - we have a baby shower at Mom and Dad's on Saturday and I'm so excited! I haven't been home since July! The drive should be interesting - hopefully she'll just sleep the whole time. I'm excited to see friends and family that I haven't seen since this summer, and to just be home again.

Next Tuesday Justin's dad and sisters fly in to spend 2 weeks with us, so we're busy getting ready for that, and Justin is sooooo excited! We haven't seen them since last Christmas, so its a long overdue visit.

I'm recovering very well, feeling good and (mostly) getting enough sleep. Naps are a wonderful thing! I've been feeling good enough to putter around the house a little, though I can't get a whole lot done with a newborn! I make sure to allot myself more than enough cuddle time on the couch with my snugglebug! I know how quickly these precious days are going by, so I'm eating up every single minute!


Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Ainsley Marie Distel

November 20, 2010
7lbs 5 oz
18" long

She's here!

I started having contractions Saturday morning around 7:00. We went on a walk and before long, they were about 5 minutes apart and 1 minute long. The labor and delivery nurse suggested taking a warm bath to try and relax and call again when they were to the point of not being able to talk or walk through them. I soaked in the tub for a long time, and as soon as I got out, the contractions got harder and right on top of each other, so we went in around 3:00. When the nurse checked me, I was dilated to 5cm, but she didn't think she felt the baby's head where it was supposed to be, so she went to get the ultrasound machine and another nurse to make sure. She still wasn't sure even with the ultrasound, so the other nurse took a look and sure enough, she found her head way up by my ribs. She checked me as well, and felt a little foot! Then things started happening fast. By then, Mom and Katie were there. Because she was footling breech and I was already in active labor, they weren't willing to try and turn her, so C-section was the way we were going. By 4:00, I was in the OR, and at 4:26, she was out. They found that not only was she breech, she also had the cord around her neck 2 times. And they found a "good-sized" fibroid in my uterus, which they removed. When they announced she was a girl, Justin (and most of the people in the room) were very surprised! Then they announced her weight, and I was very surprised! I was expecting her to be much bigger than she was. They cleaned her up and we got a few pictures while they finished with me, then took her and Justin up to the nursery. I was in recovery for about 45 minutes, and by 6:30 we were all in our room and I had my little girl in my arms!

We came home on Tuesday morning, and Mom is here until at least Thursday. Dad and Katie were here until Sunday afternoon, and just got here for Thanksgiving, so we're all just relaxing at home.

Welcome to the world, Ainsley Marie!


Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Who would have thunk it

I saw my doc this morning for my 40 week appointment. 4 months of sitting down to keep Baby D from coming out, and here I am at 40 weeks! And, I have an appointment scheduled for next Tuesday, with no promises or even hints that Baby will come before then! And the potential for induction was brought up! My doctor didn't say either way whether he thinks I'll make it to Tuesday (we told him he jinxed us last week by saying he probably wouldn't see me today!), he just said to schedule it for then and hopefully baby will come before. If I were to be induced, the earliest that would happen is next Friday. (If it comes to that, I won't wait past then!) He checked me and I'm STILL at 1.5 cm, but I'm now 100% effaced, which is good news. At least there's some progress going on.

So now we continue to wait. And my child just grows more. Goody.


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Waiting and waiting...

Our beautiful little one has yet to join the world... Everyone else due around the same time has their babies, and we're still waiting to meet ours! It is good to know that it really won't be long - even though every day we don't get to meet Baby D seems to drag on, it's truly a matter of days!

The signs seem to point to sooner rather than later - at my 38 week appointment last Wednesday, I was 1.5 cm dilated and 60% effaced. Baby's movements have slowed down quite a bit, my Braxton Hicks contractions have settled down, Baby's dropped massively. So here's hoping we get to meet this little person this week! I see my doctor again tomorrow, as long as Baby hasn't arrived yet.

This week is officially my last week of work before starting maternity leave, and I'm definitely ready to be home and just be with my baby and husband. I'm not ready to be broke for 2 months, however! But we'll make do. My federal student loans are in deferment, so that's a huge burden lifted for us. And the rest will fall into place.

Come on out, Baby D!


Thursday, October 21, 2010

4 weeks!!

Holy crow, my due date is in 4 WEEKS!! And baby really could come any time now! Yay!!

I saw my doctor yesterday and he did say that there is a less than 1% chance I will deliver over the weekend. I've been having lots of false labor and/or Braxton Hicks, but I still think it's gonna be another couple of weeks. I don't know about 4, but 2 would be just fine with me!

Mom and Katie are coming up tomorrow to spend the weekend with me, cooking and cleaning and finishing getting ready for baby! I have a whole list of things for them to do! :) I am sooo excited for them to come! Justin will be gone all weekend, so it will just be us girls. I'm hoping in addition to the cleaning and cooking, we'll get some shopping in as well.

We're really pretty set for baby at this point, still a few necessities to pick up, but the car seat is installed, I have my bag packed for the hospital, we have the nursery pretty much done, just a couple little things to finish. So my panic of a month ago and having nothing done has subsided immensely and I'm feeling good about it all!

In still other news, my job has once again changed, and I have accepted a different position with Lighthouse. Instead of going back as House Coordinator, I will be the new Administrative Assistant/the boss-man's right hand man. The pay is the same as what I was offered with the other position, but the hours are primarily day-time office hours. Granted, I'm still working in a field that always requires flexibility and the potential for having to cover an evening or weekend shift, which is fine. As excited as I was about the House Coordinator position, I'm 1000% more excited for this position! I think it's going to be a really great move for me career-wise, and it will be much better for our family as well. And everyone I work with at the office is super excited to have me in that position, which makes me even more excited for it! So I will be going back to work on January 5, the day after Justin's family flies out.

So, other than the nearly constant heartburn ( I swear, I've got a mini Sasquatch growing inside me! ), all is well in the Distel world! :)


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Oh me oh my

I cannot believe this is week 35! I realized today that this week is my last appointment-free week before baby comes! That kind of freaked me out a littlea, but in a good way. It's just another one of those reminders that this baby is real and is really coming and is really coming soon! This whole time, even with the obvious signs that there is a baby coming, it's still been pretty surreal, but now everyday it gets more and more real. The deadline to get everything done is fast approaching!

Baby is still super busy, and those movements are just getting bigger, stronger, and more painful for me! Just when I thought it couldn't get more difficult to move, it does... And now my feet are swelling, everything hurts, I'm continually exhausted. I love this baby and I'm sooo excited to meet baby, but I really do not love being pregnant. Very little about this pregnancy has been fun. And I just want to meet my baby!

The first of the baby streak that we're in has been born, which is also making this alot more real. There's only 1 more person in the streak due before me... and then it's my turn! Holy hannah!

My dear Oakie friends are having a baby shower for me on Thursday, and I'm super excited! Even just hearing about the treats they're making is exciting! After the shower, we get to reevaluate everything we need, and when Mom and Katie come in 2 weeks, we're going shopping for the rest! Yay!


Thursday, October 7, 2010

I think I would like...

... to not be pregnant anymore.

Everything is difficult now. Even eating is a chore, especially when I know that pretty much anything I put in my mouth will end up giving me heartburn. And it takes alot of energy to eat, and I just don't have it. All I did after work yesterday was lay on the couch, and I was so uncomfortable. And ironically enough, I really don't think Baby D likes it at all when I lay on my left side (which is ironic, because it's recommended that you lay on your left side for better circulation, etc...). For pretty much this whole pregnancy, I've been infinitly more comfortable on my right side anyway, but now whenever I'm on my left side, Baby pushes HARD against the couch/mattress/whatever I'm laying on, and usually jams one of those little feet into my ribs, making me very uncomfortable! But as soon as I roll onto my right side, Baby's happy as a clam.

My energy level has decreased dramatically in the last few days. I didn't think I could be more tired than I was already, but now, it's ridiculous. I just sit and look at all the junk and dirty dishes and vacuuming that needs to be done, and Justin doesn't have time to do it, and I just don't have the energy, and I don't even care anymore. Which is saying alot, coming from me!

My appointment went well yesterday, btw. Nothing extraordinary to report, really. I go back in 2 weeks, then start the 1 week visits! 6 weeks to go! (or 4. I'd be fine with 4!)


Saturday, October 2, 2010

Nursery and other Baby pix

The nursery, nearly completed. Some picture frames, a side table and lamp by the rocker, curtains, some personalization after Baby comes and we know whether it's a Tristan or an Ainsley, and few other misc accessories and it's done!

Me at 31 weeks. This picture is already inaccurate. Seriously. (I'll get another one soon.)

Mom bought these insanely, ridiculously cute mocassins for Baby D! And these are the going home outfits. Firetruck for boy (since Justin plans to be a firefighter), and pink zebra stripes for girl (since I'm obsessed with zebra stripes)! I love them both immensely!

Change is in the air...

First things first: 33 weeks! And it's October now... meaning this baby is coming NEXT MONTH!!!! That is the scariest, wildest, most exciting thought in the entire universe right now! :)

On to other, non-baby things... I've officially accepted a new position at LHL to start after maternity leave. I will be the House Coordinator, which is an administrative (and salaried!) full-time position. My main duty will be training new staff in all 5 homes. I will also have various administrative tasks, including reviewing and writing resident Risk Management Plans, writing resident annual, semi-annual, and quarterly reviews, updating and printing monthly forms for resident books, participating in office audits, completing house checks, coordinating vehicles, and attending training seminars with the other administrative staff. The hours vary, mostly nights and weekends for training, as well as being on-call 1 weekend a month. The salary will be a really significant raised, and includes vacation time. Needless to say, I'm VERY excited! Not only is this going to be a huge blessing for us financially, but it's a great opportunity for me to learn even more about the field. It will look great on my resume how I've steadily advanced in the company since hire, from part-time direct care staff to full-time house manager to house coordinator. My boss approached me a couple weeks ago to offer me the position, and once we thought and prayed about it and found out the pay and that they don't have a time commitment expectation, it seemed pretty obvious what I needed to do! The irony of it is that dI've been saying for awhile that when we move, I want to look for a job comparable to this one! We know for sure that we will be here at least until next August, with potential to stay longer. There will be alot of factors going into that decision, and we're not at a place where we need to make it yet, so we're not.

And back to baby... Baby D's antics have started to contort my belly into the oddest shapes! It's a blast to watch, as long as I'm not getting any jabs. We've decided it's getting close to time to get the carseat installed. Nursery has made progress as well. We bought the crib mattress today, so I was finally able to get the bedding on that I've been in love with for months! Curtains are next on my list. My Oakie friends are having a baby shower for me in a couple weeks, so that will be fun! I think that's the only shower before Baby comes. Katie and the aunties are having a big one right before Christmas, and I think LHL is doing one after Baby as well. I'm hoping to get registered for a childbirth class soon too. The only way we can do it with our schedules is to do an online one, but I'm fine with that, because I really don't want to be in a room full of massively pregnant women who are forced to get down onto the floor, and then back up again! It's just asking for trouble, if you ask me! :) My cravings continue to include sugar, and Funyans have been added to the list, as well as Subway. I don't count my daily intake of chocolate as a craving, since I'm genetically predisposed to need a certain quantity of chocolate per day. Someone once told me what kind of supplement to take that would curb my chocolate cravings a few months ago; apparently a chocolate craving in pregnancy indicates a low level of magnesium, and if you take a magnesium supplement, the cravings go away. I thanked her for the information, and proceeded to explain that it's actually a genetic thing for me, not likely indicative of my magnesium levels, and I had no desire to get rid of my chocolate craving! I was amused, to say the least! Justin once had the nerve this summer to try and take a piece of chocolate out of my hand. Doesn't he know who he married?! Never, EVER take a piece of chocolate from a pregnant Koep girl. Very bad idea. VERY bad idea! He learned this and hasn't tried again.


Saturday, September 18, 2010

31 weeks down...

... less than 9 to go!

What a fantastic, long, exhausting week it's been. Mom and Dad came on Monday and it was wonderful. We went and got our crib, a different one than we've been planning, but I love it! Baby's room is all and only baby, finally, with crib pieces all over the place, decorations going up on the walls, rocker in the corner... Finally!!!! Our carseat came on Wednesday and is in the box, waiting to be installed and bring baby home! I worked alot this week, which is great, because as always, we need the money in a bad way! And today I got to sleep in, go for a lovely brisk walk with my honey, work on a few baby projects, and just relax at home. And it's fall and crisp and cool and lovely!

I just love fall. I love the smells of fall, of apples and cinnamin and leaves and grass. I love the colors on the trees and the bright blue sky. I love mums and pumpkins and gourds. I love soup and tea and cider. I love scarves and coats and sweaters. And another wonderful reason to love fall? Baby D is coming in the fall! Yay!!


Friday, September 10, 2010

30 Weeks!!


fFN was negative again!! Yay!!

Ordered the carseat last night!! Yay!!

It's Friday!! Yay!!


Saturday, September 4, 2010

A successful day

The rummage sale is over and it was a success! We got rid of a TON of stuff (still lots left, but it's all going to Goodwill and/or the consignment store), and made our goal! We needed to make $85 to buy our carseat, and we made $92! So tomorrow we're heading to Target to buy the carseat!

There's lots on sale/clearance at Target that I want to get for baby's room, so I'm hoping to start picking it up this week. It also looks like our crib will be on sale next week, so hopefully Mom will go pick that up and bring us our crib when she comes to visit! So exciting!

Time is ticking away rapidly, and baby's due date is coming quickly! I see my doctor this week, and I'm hoping I remember to ask him how likely it is that I'll have the baby early, or if there's much chance I'll get to my due date or even go over. (I'm good with going a week or so early!)


Monday, August 30, 2010

Oh baby...

I don't know if I have ever been as miserable in my whole life as I was yesterday. Not only was it at least 100,000 degrees in my apartment, but I have a horrid headcold and can't breathe, and on top of it all, I'm 6 months pregnant! I haven't whined so much since I had morning sickness...

As my belly seems to be expanding exponentially overnight, it also seems to be getting lower and lower, and the kicks are lower and lower. How on earth am I supposed to "drop" when the time comes?! This kid will be falling out! (Gross visual, I know, but that's how I feel!) All of this is now giving Justin reason to believe it's a boy, since I now seem to be carrying low. We'll see.

In addition to those kicks that feel so odd, like popcorn popping in my belly, I'm also getting some nice sharp elbow jabs. I don't so much like those.

In other news, the baby's room is almost entirely empty and ready to start transforming into a nursery! Just a couple more things to pack up and haul out, and I can get started on the fun part! My rocker will be coming up shortly, and once it goes on sale, my parents will buy our crib and we can get set up! Until then, I can start on the little things, like curtains, baskets for the bookshelf, and little decorations. I'm pretty pumped! And, we're planning on buying the carseat next week with garage sale money. It's getting closer! Yay!!


Saturday, August 28, 2010

Another negative!

It's really not that often that you want a negative result on something...

I had the 2nd of 5 fetal fibronectin tests done on Wednesday, and it came back negative again! Yay! Dr Majkrzak also checked my cervix, and I wasn't dilated, another yay! Baby was busy and heartrate was good. He also measured me for the first time. I go back on September 8 for another checkup and fetal fibronectin.

In other baby news, no gestational diabetes here! That's the last thing I'd need to deal with, but it's not a concern. We've made great headway in baby's room, getting everything sorted for storage and the rummage sale. Mom and Dad are coming up soon with the rocker and some fun projects for me, and hopefully the crib. I'm super excited to get baby stuff in there!

Working in the LHL office has been going well. It's nice to have something that can get me more hours, and I love the ladies that work there! I really miss being with my residents on a regular basis, so I'm trying to make sure I get to the house to visit them as often as I can.

Justin started classes this week. He's already got a case of senioritis! He's got alot going on this semester, with a full load of classes, work, building manager, internship, and Family Ministry team. Plus, there's a baby coming before the end of the semester! I think once he gets a routine, though, he'll be fine.

Of course, I'll keep updating on baby asa they come!


Thursday, August 19, 2010

Work restriction

Well, I'm officially on work restriction. But not bed rest - yippee!! I'm not allowed on my feet for more than 1 hour per 8 hour shift and I can't lift more than 15 pounds... this completely eliminates the possibility of returning to direct care. Fortunately, I'm able to continue my house manager duties that don't require me to be on my feet, and it sounds like I'll be putting in a few hours a week at the LHL office doing office work, so I can still provide some sort of income and get out of the house!

I saw Dr Majkrzak yesterday and baby's heartbeat sounded good (baby kicked the Doppler, it was pretty funny). He checked me and I'm still not dilated, which is a great sign and the contractions haven't returned. But I still have pain if I'm on my feet for more than about 15 minutes. So I still have lots of time to spend sitting down, which is ok. I go in next week for the next fetal fibronectin (fFN) test and that will tell us how the next 2 weeks will go.

Baby's super active and most definitly getting bigger... those sweet little baby flutters are NOT flutters anymore! Pretty sure I'm growing some sort of gymnast/soccer player hybrid! Somersaults and kicks galore... especially around midnight, when I am sleeping! But I still love those baby kicks...

I'm also confined to Bemidji until baby comes. So no more day trips home. Visitors welcome!


Thursday, August 12, 2010

What a week...

We've had a bit of a dramatic past few days:

I was really stiff and sore all day Monday, including some abdominal pain, but I attributed it to all the stairs and floaties from the weekend and thought nothing of it. I woke up Tuesday and all the other soreness was gone, except the lower abdominal pain. It wasn't awful, but I decided if it got worse or I still had it Wednesday, I'd call my doctor. I went to work on Tuesday, and around 4:00 I texted Mom to see if she thought it could just be growing/stretching pains or maybe something else and she advised me to call. So I called and my nurse said it could be stretching or possibly dehydration and to drink lots of water and try to take it easy, and call or come in if it got worse. By 6:30, I was having a hard time walking. So I called for a replacement and Justin came to take me to the ER. I went up to OB and they tested for a bladder infection and hooked me up to a uterine activity moniter and a fetal moniter. The nurses were having a hard time getting the baby's heartrate on the moniter and the Doppler, since it's still so tiny, was very active, and was turned the wrong way. So they finally decided since baby was so active, baby was fine and they gave up trying to get the heartrate. Lab results came back that I didn't quite have a bladder infection, but could develop one, so they gave me a liter of fluid over a couple of hours to try to flush it out. In the meantime, while the nurses were looking for baby, they noticed that I was starting to have contractions, which started after I got to the hospital. So then they gave me a shot of Tributeline (sp?), which is supposed to calm the smooth muscles and should help stop the contractions. The nurse also checked my cervix, and I wasn't dilated at all, which was good. The shot seemed to work, so when the IV was done around midnight, I was discharged, told to take it easy on Wednesday, and call if I had any pain. So we went home and I tried to get some sleep. I slept for maybe an hour before I started having alot of pain again and eventually woke Justin up with all my tossing and turning. He called the hospital and it just happened that my doctor was on the floor that night and he said to come in right away. They weren't concerned about it being a bladder thing anymore, since I'd been going to the bathroom frequently. So about 4:30am Wednesday we were back in OB, hooked up to moniters, and looking for baby. I was given another shot of Tributeline around 6am since the contractions weren't getting any better and they just kept an eye on me. Finally my 4th nurse of the ordeal found baby just long enough to get a heartrate, and it was in the 150s, which is great. So again, no worries about baby, just me! My doctor was busy delivering babies so he wasn't able to come in and see me, but the nurses did a great job of keeping him informed. They gave me some breakfast, and my doctor decided he wanted me to come in today to have a fetal fibronectin test done (I'll explain that in a bit), and when I felt comfortable, I could go home. By about 9:00, I finally dozed off for a hour or so, and woke up with no more contractions, just some very stiff and sore ab muscles. I was discharged again by 11, told to take it easy all day and drink lots of water and call if the contractions started again or if I had any other symptoms of early labor. One of my dear friends was already in the hospital after having her little girl on Monday, so we stopped to say hi and 2 of my best friends were there as well. Justin called in to work and we just vegged all day and tried to get some sleep. I woke up this morning feeling much better, only a little sore. We went in right away to have the fetal fibronectin test done and were told we'd get the results this afternoon. Basically, the fetal fibronectin test can tell you whether or not you're likely to deliver in the next 2 weeks. Basically, fetal fibronectin is the "glue" that holds baby to the uterus, and it should remain in the uterus from weeks 22-35. If it's dectected in vaginal secretions during that time, it means its leaking and could indicate the body is getting ready to deliver. If the test comes back negative, it mean there is a 99.2% chance you won't deliver in the next 2 weeks. If it's positive, extra precautions are taken and you basically wait and see. Mine came back negative! Yay! I do have to have this test done every 2 weeks until week 34, so we're now playing the rest of this pregnancy somewhat by ear. My doctor did have me take off work through the weekend, since I'm still a little sore, and that gives me time to recover and for things to settle down. Then, as long as I'm up to it and nothing happens before then, I should be able to go back to work on Monday.

Keep us in your prayers, I'll do my best to keep this updated as we go!


Monday, July 12, 2010

Yay Husbands!!

I have the awesomest husband in the whole wide world! I think I'll keep him! ;)

As it's become more and more apparent over the past few weeks that our income is just not keeping up with our expenses, and our life is about to get ALOT more expensive, the only solution is to increase our income. I already work 40 hours a week; I quit my other part time job when I got pregnant, because 60 hour weeks are BAD when you're pregnant and sick. I'm feeling better now, but 1) who's going to hire a 5-months pregnant woman? and 2) 60 hour weeks are still pretty bad when you're pregnant and not sick. So that leaves it up to Justin. My superhero husband who's ready and willing to take on another part time job, go back to school, do an internship, and start this crazy adventure called parenting with me. Will I ever see him? Rarely. Will our bills get paid? Definitely. It sucks, but we've done it before, and we can do it again. The point is, he's really stepping up and supporting our family while finishing his degree, and that's no small feat. Meanwhile, I'm coming to grips with the very real possibility that I may not be able to be a stay at home, or part time stay at home mommy. Justin thinks I can go back part time, instead of full time, but I'm not so sure. So that discussion is to be had. And, just to make that decision even more complicated, my boss is considering offering me a raise in order to keep me from moving next summer. Meaning I'm definitly going back full time. So we'll see how all this goes down.

But my husband rocks, and I thought everyone should know!


Thursday, June 24, 2010

Baby D!

Baby D at 18 weeks, 5 days! Our little squirmy-wormy was wiggling around, but we got some cute profile pictures and an adorable picture of a foot. We also saw it kind of wave at us, but they didn't get a picture of that. Baby measures at about 9 oz, heartrate was 139. Baby's head measured a few days ahead (how delightful), and it was very stubborn about looking at the scanner. :) It was a beautiful thing to see, and it made all this even more real, while at the same time being incredibly surreal. It was like, "There's really a baby in there! Really? THAT baby's in there?!" And we heard the heartbeat again at my dr appt afterwards, and it sounded just as perfect and beautiful as the first time! I could listen to that little swish-swish sound all day long!
In other baby news, the crib set I've had my heart set on for the past, oh, 3 months has gone on clearance at Target and I will be purchasing it tomorrow so I do not miss out! I'm very excited to bring it home, I just wish I had the crib to set up! But I don't think Justin would let me get away with that quite yet...

Monday, June 21, 2010

How the time flies

I realized today how long it's been since I've posted! Oops... We've been busy beavers in the past few weeks!
Justin loved his canoe trip and probably could have stayed out there for another week or two. He's been working at the liquor store for about a month and he's really enjoyed it so far! He's playing church softball again this year, so between those and keeping the yard mowed and the building cleaned, he stays busy.
I've been doing really well. Ever since my morning sickness ended, I've been feeling awesome! We go for walks as much as we can, and I've been alot more energetic and ambitious. It's nice to be somewhat back to normal, and I'm sure Justin's glad to have his wife back for the time being! I'm almost exclusively in maternity clothes now, which is fun, but also a little frustrating. My options are much more limited! I've had another appointment with Dr Majkrzak, when we got to hear the heartbeat and it sounded awesome! I go in again on Wednesday. I have an ultrasound first, then see the doctor. I am so excited to see the baby! No, we're not finding out what we're having! And, it's Justin's birthday that day, so it's an extra special day. I've been feeling lots of little baby flutters lately, which is the oddest and most wonderful feeling! Especially when it totally freaks out, like it did the other night! No doubt about it, that's Jusin's baby in there!!
We celebrated our 3rd anniversary a couple weeks ago. I cannot believe it's already been 3 years!
We went to a Twins/Rockies game last week with our dear friends Randi and Kevin and her family. It was way fun to get away, to see the new Target Field, and to see the Twins win!
Otherwise, we've just been working and spending time with friends. I'll make sure to post pictures and an update after the ultrasound and appointment on Wednesday!


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Bye-Bye, Nausea!!

I had my first day without any nausea!!!!!!!

So I ate everything in sight.

I am so ridiculously hungry!!

And I crave Granny Smith apples. Figures. I always told Justin that I hoped I'd crave something healthy when I was pregnant, but I assumed I'd crave things like chocolate or burritos. Nope. Apples. How am I supposed to gain a pound a week when all I want is apples?! But they're soooooo yummy...

Anyway, I feel like having a party, I'm so happy to be feeling well! Yay!


Friday, May 7, 2010

12 weeks...

That's just crazy sauce. 12 weeks already?!

I'm still in the throes of morning sickness. Although mine is more like all-day sickness. Sometimes eating helps, sometimes sleeping helps, sometimes whining helps, sometimes nothing helps. Fortunately, I haven't thrown up yet! I've been told by several people, including my doctor, that it should go away around week 12- 14. Well, today is week 12, and it hasn't gone away yet!

I had an appointment last week, pretty routine, got poked and prodded. My doctor wasn't able to find the heartbeat with the Doppler yet, but that's ok, because at 10 weeks it's 50/50 if you can pick it up. I go back in a couple weeks and it sounds like I'll have an ultrasound then!

Clothes are getting tight, and I've definitley noticed a bump that wasn't there before! I've already scoped out the maternity section at Target, so when the day comes that none of my pants fit, I know what I want!

In other news, Justin has successfully completed another semester! Yay, I get my husband back! In a week... He leaves tomorrow for a 6 day canoe trip with some other Oakies. I'm glad he's going, he needs the break, but I'll miss him lots. When he gets back, he'll be starting his new job with the city of Bemdiji as a liquor store clerk. We're both pretty excited he finally got a job, and one he probly won't hate!

That'as about all that's new with us.


Friday, April 9, 2010

8 weeks

That is so bizaare to me! 8 weeks already! I have to say though, the past few weeks haven't been all that fun. Compared to some of my dear friends who've had awful pregnancies, mine's been a walk in the park, but it's still not fun! I've had days where I've wanted to do nothing but lay on the couch and die!! And I'm so darn cranky, my poor husband hightails it out of here as fast as possible! I sleep 12 hours and wake up ready for a nap. But it's still such an exciting thing, and I know that it won't be long and this yucky stuff will pass (hopefully) and it will get fun! Until then, I'll eat my Sour Patch Kids and whine a little.

In other news, the Michael Buble concert 2 weeks ago was simply amazing! No other words could describe it! And I think baby liked it too! I didn't feel sick or have to pee once during the whole 3 hour show! ( I know baby can't hear yet, but let me have my delusion that I'm growing a Michael Buble fan!)

We've gotten on WIC, which is a huge helper with groceries. They weighed me, and I've lost 3 pounds, so I've got some work to do, but I guess that's ok.

So that's what's new with us.


Friday, March 26, 2010


I had my first ultrasound today and it was amazing! Not only did we get to see our little grain of rice, but we got to see it's heartbeat! It was so beautiful! It was overwhelmingly reassuring to see that little glimmer on the screen and that tiny little peanut.

I saw my baby today!!

Monday, March 22, 2010


My levels today were over 6000, which is perfect! Yay!!

And, I'm 5 weeks 3 days along, meaning this baby has stuck around longer than the other 2. :)

I've been irrationally worried this weekend and I'm not sure why, so this was a huge relief to hear this news!

Now I just have the ultrasound on Friday, then I'll make an appointment with Dr Marjzrak and go from there. The nurse I talked to said that sometimes at 5-6 weeks (I will be 6 weeks on Friday), they can't always see anything, so if that's the case, I'll come back again in a week. But I really hope we can see something this Friday!


Saturday, March 20, 2010

Blood Tests and Ultrasounds

I've had 2 blood tests done to check my HcG levels, and I'll have them checked once more on Monday. On Wednesday, they were 976, and yesterday, they were over 2200. According to Dr Marjzrak, that's normal, and "it means you're probably pregnant, which you were probably planning on." (That's a direct quote! I like him, he's funny!) So now I have an ultrasound scheduled for next Friday morning!!! I get to see my baby!!!!! I'll keep posting as more updates come! I'm guessing I'll be in quite a bit at the beginning, just to make sure everything is going smoothly, so I'll have lots of updates!


Thursday, March 18, 2010

And so it begins...

I'm finally joining the club... the baby club that is! That's right, people, I'm pregnant! :D

I found out on Tuesday. I'll be 5 weeks tomorrow, due November 19.

The best news is that I'm feeling queasy pretty much all the time! Why is this good news? Because I was not sick with either of the babies I lost, and alot of my friends and family who've had miscarriages were not sick. So I'm embracing the nausea. So far, I haven't thrown up, so I think I'm doing just fine. :)

I was in yesterday for a clinical pregnancy test and also to measure my HcG levels. I'll have them checked again tomorrow, and once more on Monday. As long as those levels are rising like they're supposed to, I won't need to go in to see Dr Marjzrak until about 10-12 weeks. I haven't heard back from the clinic yet on the test done yesterday.

I've officially resigned from the OHCC kitchen. We decided that 60 hour work weeks are way too much for me to handle. Plus, it's not very appetizing for the cook to be sick the whole time!

The biggest change that this creates is that we're now not moving in December. Now we're looking at next May, after graduation.

I'll do my best to keep this up to date as time goes on! Keep us in your prayers!


Friday, January 22, 2010

Xrays and whatnot

Well, I had my Xray on Wednesday. It was a not fun experience. *Warning - this might be a little graphic, but not too bad.* When the procedure goes as planned, it's not so comfortable. It involves a speculum and a catheter, need I say more? Except mine didn't go as planned. Because I won the award for the most difficult of the month! When you have the worlds smallest cervix, it must be dilated, you see. Ouch! And when you have a fibroid on your cervix, you must get past it to get the catheter in. Double ouch! But, Dr Majkrzak said hae didn't see any blockage, which is what they were looking for, which is good news. He said he'd have a radiologist look at it, and if anything turned out abnormal, he'd call me. He also wants me to schedule an office visit in early March to see how things are going. Then I went home and ate Qdoba and felt sorry for myself. So I guess it's good news that there's nothing wrong. But part of me really wanted to find something, so I'd have a definitive answer as to why I've lost my babies. But then I had my 1 year review at work, and my supervisor made me realize something pretty major. My big struggle with God is my trust issues. I'm such a control freak and that totally comes into play in my relationship with God. So maybe part of the reason why all of my tests have come back normal is because God wants to realize I need to just trust Him with this. I need to just rest in the fact that God has a reason for all of this happening and that could be it. So that's what I'm working on right now. Trusting God with this huge thing in my life. And that's so hard right now, because we're moving soon and I'm totally trying to dictate when it's going to happen for us. And I really need to just trust that God knows and that has to be enough. That scares me to death. So pray for me.


Thursday, January 14, 2010

Random thoughts and ventings

Good news - I finally got my Xray scheduled. It's next Wednesday. I'm really hoping this last test gives us some answers, since all the blood work came back normal. Then hopefully we can sort of figure out what we want to do. It's a hard decision, because we're moving across the country in a year, and the absolute earliest we could have a baby would be late October. We don't really love the idea of moving with a brand new baby, or being super pregnant, so late October is cutting it close. But then if that's when it's sposed to happen, it will work. But then maybe it's not sposed to happen here. Which sucks, because I really, really wanted to have a baby here. I wanted to be close to my family so my mom could be there. I wanted to have my best friends come see me in the hospital. I wanted to have what all of my friends have had. And I don't know if I get to. And that sucks. Plus, there's this little thing called health insurance. It's cheap here, and Colorado doesn't have anything like MinnesotaCare. Plus, I'm just so freaking tired of waiting. I have no idea what I want to do, I have no idea what we're sposed to do, and I am having an incredibly difficult time letting go of this and putting it in God's hands, which I know is really what I'm sposed to do. Boo.

We started sponsoring a child today. A little girl from Zambia named Grace. She'll be 4 in April, and she lives in an AIDS-afflicted community. I'm really, really excited we're doing this. I've wanted to for a long time, and since we're not part of a church, we've been struggling to figure out how to tithe. And child sponsorship is the way we've chosen to go. Mom and Dad give me 2 months of it for Christmas.

I bought mine and Katie's tickets for Michael Buble today. It's March 28 in St Paul, and our tickets are our birthday presents this yeat, since our birthdays are in April. I cannot even wait! We have to get our hotel room still, and I have to get out of work.

I'm really tired. I work alot. And that's just 1 job. Then I go to work at the other job. Then I have to see my husband and not be a total witch.

I thought I'd accepted the place we're at in our lives, but I'm kind of struggling. I don't like working 60 hours a week to support us, even if I love my job. I don't like being the only one of my friends who's not a mom. I don't like our little apartment. And I was doing so good at being content! Figures... I think I need some quality Michelle time, Justin time, and Jesus time. The question is, when do I get that.

There's my random thoughts and ventings for the day. Not very interesting, maybe, but I got it off my chest.


Sunday, January 10, 2010

Happy New Year! (10 days late...)

i can't believe it's already January 10. I'm pretty sure I went to sleep yesterday and it was December. Needless to say, I've been just a teeny bit busy.

We went to Colorado for Christmas. We spent 4 days at Mom and Dad's, relaxing, shopping, and cooking, then celebrating Christmas with Mom, Dad, Katie, and David. We then hit the road and spent a week with Justin's family. We spent most of our trip relaxing at Justin's dad's house, although we did spend Christmas Day with the whole Distel clan. The big news of the trip was twofold; Justin and I both got tattoos, and together with Sarah and Chelsea, we bought Justin's dad a brand new bed, which he very much deserved. (I'll post pictures of our tattoos in a future post.)

We got home on New Year's Eve, unpacked, and back to work I went on New Year's Day. Lighthouse is in staff crisis mode, so overtime has been approved (and practically required for house manager's!), meaning I've been working my tail off every day since! Yesterday was my first glorious day off, which we spent at Grandma and Grandpa G's celebrating Christmas with Mom's side of the family, and it was beautiful! I'm sitting on the couch today doing absolutely nothing (which I think I've deserved), and then it's back to work tomorrow.

Justin's been at home, recovering from bronchitis. He starts school tomorrow, and the job search.

I'll post pictures of Christmas and our tattoos soon.